Wednesday, November 11, 2015
#Wtf
Seriously this was bandaged this happened because someone up college doesn't know got to sick paper up with blue tack #youseriousbitch I got hurt because of you http://youtu.be/jofJyEVE32g it's only a paper cut bitch please I know paper cuts this is not a god damn paper cut
Life lesson
I learn as I had another one of my break downs you know the whole saying beware who your enemies are
You never know who your enemies are till you conquered your true enemy aka yourself if you can do that you can start figuring out who you can and can't trust
In this life
This quote is so true let me explain during my melt down I was tempted to cut I took a step back and thought Is it Worth it because I'm not hurting the people who hurt me I'm hurting myself.
What people see what I want them to see
What people se what I want them to see
Reasons why
I have OCD
MPD
Anxiety
Depression
Epilepsy
Astma
Dyslexia
Reason why I like the me online
Bubble
Out going
Smiling
Joking
Ready for any thing
And so on
how can i say thank you
over te years a load of vloggers helped me with my battle of anxity depression and suside attempts watching them and hearing their exprincese and just how i relate in so may ways helped me find new methods to cope my song writing became a big part of my life actully restarting up a channel became a thing so i found new ways of getting round my depression and i don’t know how to thank each youtuber that has help i wish there was a way i mean i thanked joey graceffa and what he said to me was lovely and meant a lot but thank the boys from o2L MAGCON DAN AND PHIL ZOE AND JOE ALFIE JIM tayna roman loads of others i want to thank but i never think i am going to have a chance.
Pinch me
This has not sunk in at all that this has happened to me so I would like to say
When I started out on YouTube back in 2012 I got abuse for singing and so I deleted my channel but now I restarted and put new content up its been great but when I started I thought no one would watch because I'm someone that talks about my struggles and how to cope with and I do short films thank again for proving me wrong of course. Now I've had 1,004 views please share my channel subscribe all that good stuff I love everyone that has I can't say thank you enough
MY INTEREST SCALE FROM THE NORMAL TO THE WERID AND OUT THERE
NORMAL
MUSIC OFC (LISTENING PLAYING AND WRITING MUSIC)
WRITING
SINGING
ACTING
YOUTUBE OFC
FILMING
FASHION
SLEEPING
THE INTERNET OFC
PRANKING
THE WERID
GHOST HUNTING
NETWORKING
D.I.Y NOT AROUND THE HOUSE LIKE MAKE YOUR OWN LIPSTICK MAKE YOUR OWN CUTS BRUISES AND SCARS ON NO BUDGE FOR FILMS
AS FAR AS ANY OTHER INTREST GO WHICH I MUSIC CAMERA AND STAGE THAT IS IT
my first short film
i speak about mental health
meeting joey graceffa
global bedlam
lastest video global bedlam interview
what i have done started PQA PERFROMING ARTS ACADMEY at 15 left at 18
found i love it and joined other drama groups like mk theatre and madcap
had to leave all these when i turned 18 then gatesand wilkes came to milton keynes
i wrote to them asked if i could join as i was 18 stayed there till i was 20 then they closed .
i was in perfroming arts at colege till last year
things i have done out side perfoming arts
whaddstone manner 3 time mad festival
heart radio
perfromed with RSC
AUDITIONED FOR Torchwood
been in avanu Q TWICE
I WRITE AND FILM MOVIES
SONG WRITE
RADIO PRESENT
DONE FILM AND TV WITH THE 8TH DOCTOR
I HAVE DONE A LOT FROM 15 TILL NOW YOU CAN SEE SOME OF MY WORK ON YOUTUBE .
FOR ALL FANGIRL/BOY NEEDS
JET BLACK HEART LINK BELOW
DRAG ME DOWN BY 1D
ALL TIME LOW SOMETHING’S GOTTA GIVE
thank you everyone that has supported me and encourged me with my channel it has been a wild ride to reach 1,027 views is crazy pleasee keep sharing and liking
that’s it thank you again
RANDOM BLOG ENTRIES
ENTRY 1
how can i say thank you
over te years a load of vloggers helped me with my battle of anxity depression and suside attempts watching them and hearing their exprincese and just how i relate in so may ways helped me find new methods to cope my song writing became a big part of my life actully restarting up a channel became a thing so i found new ways of getting round my depression and i don’t know how to thank each youtuber that has help i wish there was a way i mean i thanked joey graceffa and what he said to me was lovely and meant a lot but thank the boys from o2L MAGCON DAN AND PHIL ZOE AND JOE ALFIE JIM tayna roman loads of others i want to thank but i never think i am going to have a chance.
ENTRY 2
What people see what I want them to see
Now I have spoken about this on YouTube people don’t seem to get what I act like on YouTube is not the real me i never show the real me maybe out of fear maybe out of shame maybe because I hate the real me
Reasons why
I have OCD
MPD
Anxiety
Depression
Epilepsy
Astma
Dyslexia
Reason why I like the me online
Bubble
Out going
Smiling
Joking
Ready for any thing
And so on
ENTRY 3
Life lesson
I learn as I had another on of my break downs you know the whole saying beware who your enemies are
You never know who your enemies are till you conquered your true enemy aka yourself if you can do that to can start figuring out who you can and can’t trust
In this life
This quote is so true let me explain during my melt down I was tempted to cut I took a step back and thought Is it Worth it because I’m not hurting the people who hurt me I’m hurting myself.
ENTRY 4
My experience
Let me put out my experience suicide is that deep dark hole a its like you have the devil and the angel on your shoulder and the devil just like end it no one wants you around and what ever nasty thing it can chuck at you you don’t listen to the angel you just go maybe its true and you a stuck in a never ending cycle where you are arguing with yourself and before you know it you are doing something you later regret the truth is someone out there does want you someone does love you and some one has been in your shoes and will be with you to bring you back again and its thanks to those people I am still here the youtubers I watch and my cousin my family and friends and I found the strength to carry on I am not going to say it gets easy it doesn’t but find a coping method to help you through and speak up and tell someone the first step is admitting you need help.
if you want to ask a question the link for my ask fm is below or you can tweet me usimg the hashtag #askDjlyric same hashtag will be on my google plus becuasei do random Q&A’S there
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